So the boys just left about an hour ago. The second I saw that van pull away, I wanted to cry. Not really, but I was just super sad! They were so nice, and amazing. I had a smile on my face the whole time. They were so genuinly friendly.

So heres my long rambling post about it,

So I left about 10 minutes before they were scheduled to arrive to pick up my friend who was coming to the party, so they got there before I even got home. My friend Erika was at my house so she called me flipping out because they were here.  So finally I got home and they were all downstairs with Erika and Mallorie.  Me and Carly walked down and introduce ourselves, i almost fell down the stairs I was that excited! 

So we were all just talking and Sam was like your mom is so accomodating! I feel like I could just ask her anything! I should have asked for something outrageous! So my mom comes downstairs and Sam completely serious goes, I was wondering if you could bring my a Camel. My mom just laughed and Cole adds and can you fill the room with like two feet of jello? It was hilarious! 

Then we were all just chatting and Kamneev and Mo came downstairs. For whatever reason Carly brought up buying condoms and that started a whole conversation about Sam buying condoms...It was quite interesting. Then he talked about how he used to work as a cashier at a grocery store and it was always awkward when someone would be buying tampons.  Lol then we decided to play catch phrase, boys against girls.  They won! Our team was awful. I wont name names. Also, Carly was challenging Cole so she said "come at me bro!" and Cole just looked so scared and confused so Carly goes NO not like that!! not C-U-M! and everyone just cracks up cuz Cole wasn't thinking that at all. We all talked about tattoos, harry potter (cole likes the books more, thank god!), tattoos, coles hatred for guacamole, etccc XD 

So then they all set up their equipment to start playing. Sam had "moments" with everyone which was adorable. Me and Erika were the only ones who had heard of them so everyone else quickly fell in love! After a few songs Sam became his audience personality, Chaz. Cole, Jordan, and Michael sang Last Breathe.  I had no idea that all of them had amazing voices. I was in awe. My mom came down for Yours Truly because thats the only reason she agreed to let me have the house party and she almost cried it was adorable. 

After they played we all sat around and talked a bit more and bought some merch. I had a long conversation with Jordan.  I got along with him the most lol. He stole my $20 and attempted to sell a screw driver from my house for $3000. He owed Carly $1000 for every chip she fed him though! and Erika fed Sam Celery.  We found hair in the ranch dip and Cole and I decided someone needed to make polyjuice potion and drink it so we could figure out whose it was.  Kamneev gave Michael a hand massage which was adorable. Sam decided to go on the stationary bike in my house and bike a mile.  They started talking about how hot Michaels sisters are, and Cole goes yeah they all think my sister is hot to, she's 7.  I told Sam that if my brother cut his hair and wore glasses he'd look like him. and erika goes, well i would totally date your brother then! Sam just laughed and said yeah i'd date him to. 

So then we all went upstairs to take pictures.  Cole noticed my Family Force 5 shirt, and gave me this adorable look and was just like 'NICE' I stood next to Cole and we just had our moments as I like to call them. We did a funny picture and Jordans idea of a funny face was turning his back to the camera. Ill put pics up eventually! and videos! So then they all started giving us hugs and Sam hugged me and we had a 'joystick hug' which is my new favorite term. Jordan deff was the best hugger followed closely by Sam.  They were all walking back to the van when they realized michael wasnt with them so we joked saying we were going to keep him.  Then they all started walking back and Sam came back to collect his money because he almost forgot.  The last things he said were 'I trust you!' 

So that was my day. im sure i forgot to talk about a lot. but ill always have the memories! so. much. fun! Can't wait til they are in the area again! :D 

Side notes: Apparently Sam has had sex. He told Erika. Also, Jordan was in my bathroom for like hours. I think he fell in. ;) Oh, and they played kryptonite by three doors down <3

It's been a while since i've updated, but i've been incredibly sick and stressed with school work and work.  So i'm just going to do a quick update of my life.

I finally got caught up in school work.  I think I passed my sociology test, which is amazing considering how behind I was in that class.  Needless to say, it was a huge weight off my shoulders.  

Work has been so stressful. Not because i'm busy or anything but because of the payroll cuts and this whole sexual harassment thing going on. (It's a long story).  So I decided to quit.  Now, I just have to deal with the stress of applying at new places.  My parents are not happy that I may be jobless for a little while, but they don't understand why I need to get away from this job.  It's self-destructive.

Finally, I went to another concert.  Same one, just in Chicago this time.  Going there and meeting all the band members again and just listening to amazing music made me realize I needed to change my major.  I haven't been passionate about creative writing in such a long time.  In reality, the last time I wrote a story was probably freshman year of high school.  Thus, Music Business is my new major.  I don't have to make a sound decision until I transfer and finish my gen eds, but i'm pretty sure i'm going to stick with it and go to Elmhurst College or Columbia College in Chicago.  I'm really excited about this, and surprisingly everyone's been really supportive towards it :) 

So that's basically my update.

Oh, and i'm getting a tattoo that says, "I want to live, not just survive" 

It's based on this song...

So this weekend was pretty much amazing.

Despite my stomach ache from the previous night, I had an amazing time at The Rave/Eagles Ballroom.  I got pretty much up to the front row, and I got to meet a majority of the bands and take pictures/get signatures! It pretty much made my life. I plan on seeing them again Wednesday too! Ahhh!

So since pictures are worth a thousand words...

Alex Marshall from The Cab. He was so sweet! Not to mention adorable, and an amazing keyboardist!

Alex Deleon from The Cab. He is such an amazing singer. 

Samuel Miller from Paradise Fears. He is the most adorable guy I think I have ever met in my life! He was so excited to just talk to his fans. I thought it was amazing. He was really gracious and kind!

Brian from The Summer Set agreed to seduce the camera with us.  He thought it was unique. fuck yes! :D

Rachel and Trevor from He is We. This band is probably the most inspiring band ever.  Trevor mention how he is not allowed to shop at Hollister and I pretty much fell in love.

And last but certainly not least...

Joey Thunder from The Cab. OHMYGOSH. I love him so much. He's a ginger, what can I say? lol! He's also really sweet! I asked if it was his natural hair color, and told him I liked it! I will marry him. Or not. He has a girlfriend D: 

Okay I'm done fangirling for the day. It's not one of my proudest moments, but deal with it. Their all very good looking, respectful men.  Maybe I would fan girl over guys in my own league if they treated girls this way. 

That is all. <3

I've never really been super religious. Too many rules and constrictions, that I just figured, someone made this stuff up to make us miserable.  However, lately I started going to my moms community church.  I went, at first, to make her happy.  The church got her through a lot after my grandpa died.  In all honesty, I owe the church her life.  So I went, guard up, expecting to hate it.  I walked out with tears in my eyes.  The service had touched me so much, I was crying the whole time.  So now, it's kind of become a weekly occurrence.  I've renewed my faith in God, without all the restrictions and rules saying you had to do things a certain way to get into heaven.  Obviously, I'm not going to go shoot up the next person I see, and think i'll get into heaven, but I realize that God loves me unconditionally, and that honestly feels amazing to me.

So, why am I bringing this up? Well, today the mass happened to be about children and the power of a simple minute.  It made me think about when I was younger, and in 3rd grade.  The guest speaker talked about how as children, we are like wet cement.  The imprint of an adult can last a lifetime, but the older we get the harder it is to, metaphorically, imprint or break that cement.  A child's entire life can be impacted and changed for ever in just one minute.  Which made me think all the way back to Mrs. Hunt's class.  I sat there in my desk pondering what to write about; my options were limitless.  It just had to be a narrative paper.  I began writing away with my freshly sharpened #2 pencil (I remember being frustrated that I couldn't use my mechanical pencil back then), trying to put in as many of the "5 senses" I could think of.  I handed in my paper and hoped for the best.  I knew I was a good student, but never the best, always just good enough to get by with about a B average.

The next day my second grade teacher stopped by.  She called out my name and asked me to come out in the hallway.  I was nervous, everyone always used to joke about how she was a witch.  I remember we would stay behind after she left the classroom and sneak in to find her broom. It also didn't help that her name was Mrs. Richards, or to us, Wichards.  So I went to the hallway and she asked me how my writing was going.  I explained to her how I had just written a narrative paper the other day.  By this point, I was a little nervous because the paper I had written was about her.  Sure enough, she pulled out the paper and on top was a shiny gold star and a huge A+.  I was shocked, she explained that Mrs. Hunt thought it was such an amazing piece of work that she should show it to the person I wrote it about.  Mrs. Richards congratulated me and even gave me a huge chocolate cupcake.  From that day on, I knew I wanted to write.  It's the one thing in my life that i've always been better than average on.

To this day, I really don't quite remember what I wrote about my 2nd grade teacher.  All I know, is that one simple moment changed the course of my life.  The point of all of this, is what you say to a child will affect them forever.  There's so much corruption in this world, and in the end, they are the ones who will have the burden of these terrible things.  So take some time out of your life to tell a child something that will impact them and maybe change their life for the better.  They are our future after all.

Wow, never imagined this thing would actually get views, and I disabled my own views so that means someone visited this site 18 times. Aww, that's kinda of awesome.

Anyways, today's been pretty uneventful. I took my best friend out to lunch, and found the most delicious drink ever, besides Baha Blast of course.  Mcdonalds has the best caramel hot chocolate in the world. Well, that may be an overstatement, but it's the best thing that's happened to me all day. :P

My approval ^^

I'm not really sure why i'm writing a blog at 2:30 in the morning, when any intelligent person would be sleeping. Especially knowing that they have to get up in a couple of hours, but I had this nagging need to write about something. So here I am, most likely talking to no one.  I set this up so I could start writing again, it's been a while.  I've missed you, love.

I am currently reading a book by the lovely Miss Sarah Dessen; she is a joy.  Her books remind me of the type of books Nicholas Sparks writes.  They have their cheesy romantic, sometimes heart shattering endings, but they teach you something about life, about love.  This book is called, "What Happened to Goodbye."  I'm only three chapters in, but i'm sure it's going to be a favorite.  I can't relate to the main character, Mclean, at all so far, but I do sympathize with her.  Her mother is a cheating bitch and she has to move from town to town becase of her fathers job.  She changes her name and persona every time they move to a different place.  However, she meets a boy, and i'm sure you can see where this is going.  I love cliche's.  It did get me thinking though.  How incredibly wonderful would it be if you could change who you were every couple of months? How many things would you try that you never imagined you would try in the past.  I'd do so much if I knew at the end of the day that I would get a fresh start.

Since it is 2:30 something in the morning, I can't think of much more to write about, and my mother just turned my light of on me. I'll take that as a sign that I should get some rest.

I'll leave you with this song.
Til next time..